Love post

This entry will be a little update on my infatuation story [funny how it always starts and ends tt way! =( ]

There's this new guy on our team..Joined us ard oct 2009,i think.. Let's call him WB. So when he first came in,i was just 'out' of my depression era.. Was already on the path of 'recovery'. But didnt really pay him much attention then. Cant rmb why i didnt..mmmm

I guess because he was one of the 'newbies', they did most activities together and i didnt really join them for much. Plus he smokes.. So he'll usually be around the smoking gang.

Anyway then i believe that ard early nov or something, our work paths started to cross more. I found him interesting. In many ways, he reminds me of Gerald.. Plus this dude has that low-tone voice that i seem to have a weakness for!! God!

He's tall..Nicely built. Has tt sunken cheek look. A little too skinny if u ask me but he got those nice shoulders and pretty decent arms. I think it's the over-all package that sort of got me this time. The hair,body and character factor.

Here's the bummer. He's attached! Not only that, he's been with the girl for FIVE years!!! 5 freaking years! GOD! Sometimes,i feel that u're just torturing my poor little heart! Parading them just a tad bit out of my reach.
Oh ya, i also would like to mention that he's dead serious abt getting married with her next year. So ya. . .

Of course i wun lie and say he's the perfect guy. Let's just say tt this dude doesnt have the best temper in the world. But he can be sweet and tt voice.. ahhh..

He even knows what to say to calm me down from my crazy rants abt tt bitch in the office. But saying so, im ashamed to say tt im falling for him

I know that i shouldnt. I know that i should stop all sort of mental illusions before i get drowned in him even more. I know i should turn around and get out before it hurts badly just to be around him.

I need to keep him a friend. Think of him as a friend. Nothing more.

Did i mention that im starting to love his back view?

At least that way i wont see his eyes. Won't see those eyes that give away sooo much more of him.

Cant believe that after about 3years since Gerald, this guy has actually managed to stir up my heart as a 'potential'. Sad thing is that he doesnt really qualify as one, does he?

You know how ppl say that as long as he's not married, you have a chance? hahah..Maybe his gf will dump him? Basing it on her character, i highly doubt so. Oh well,yet another i need to painfully remove from my 'Like List'.


Hey BF! Where in this world are you!?!??! What's taking you soooooo long to get to me????? Cant you feel me longing for you? If you're with another girl right now, dump her! Our paths are meant to cross. Stop torturing me by making me wait for u, dear!

I'll be praying for you tonight dear. I'll pray that our paths cross soon. I'll pray for our happiness together. I'll pray that from the moment we meet, we'll know that we're meant for each other. I love you dear. I already do.
I know that im hallucinating now, but i know you're out there somewhere. Im really hoping that you can 'feel me' calling out to you.
I pray for you. =) See you soon?


~Loves~