aimless post

I feel like an internal mess.

Right this instant, im lying on my bed with a terrible back pain which causes me not to be able to walk properly.

Im filled with thoughts about work..Endless work.
Family. Family-related problems...

Endless problems. People to call..Things to do.

And all made worse with this nagging back pain..

Im constantly pissed.

Arrrghh..this is going nowhere..Blog again soon...

The end nearing.....

THe end is nearing....

*insert scary music*

At this moment, im neither happy nor sad. My every waking moment is filled with thoughts as to how to hit that amount. From the moment i open my eyes to the moment i close it.. It's all about how to achieve it..

It's no wonder im now sick.

Bloody runny nose!I just wanna shut my eyes. This is the 1st day of this 'flu/sinus' thing. I hope it goes away when i wake up tmr.

Ohhh..btw there's a new 'angel' in the gang. She's the same age as E. Somehow was not really friendly to her on monday. ANd i dunno why know!!! Perhaps it's because she's sitting with me now, so feel as if my space is invaded. (eh, must remember that for a looooNgg time, i had the WHOLE table to myself leh..such things dun change overnight de)
THen again maybe it's because i see her arrival as a need to 'prove' myself even more to E that im good. Even better than her. Ai yoh...It's like a child competing for the father's love.

Anyway will try to be a nicer person la. But actually i wasnt mean to her la. Just didnt talk as much. I was suffering frm a bad backache. Plus im naturally a quiet person. So there~

HAizz..i really just hope that i'll end this month a very verrrryYYYYYY happy person!!!!! =)


(planning to buy a kambing for hari raya haji.. *excited* !!!!)