Break the pattern. Kill the illusion.

I hate it that i feel pain in result to actions of yours again! I hate it how i got affected by you last night again! I hate it how i still cant fully control my emotions when it comes to you. I hate it that i currently am not applying what ive learnt.

You are a friend. What you do is up to you. How you treat me is based on who you are as a person. You are not inclined to treat me especially well.

Let go. I need to let go. God, please please please give me strength and wisdom to move on. Away from those stupid emotions im investing in you. Away from this crazy illusion.