Lousier than lousy?

You know somethings u think u've reached rock bottom but then u realise that it can actually go deeper...That feeling of ultimate hopelessness.. However u wanna term tt feeling, im feeling just that way now.

THought with this new month, things would get better. I'll out-perform my past lousy month. And lo & behold. It's almost as bad~

Wtf lah..

It's as if i cant get out of this cursed stage. Going around in circles..

Feeling soooooooooooooooo bloody lousy. Cant even close a proper case without problems~! Frm parents frm prospects. GTH la..

Dun even knw why im doing all these...k la, im not giving up on the industry. Not yet...But just hate this kind of feelings la. Wanna cry but know that it wun bring any goodness to it. So still have tt heavy-in-the-heart feeling. All in the same time feeling like shit~

ahhHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH....feel like screaming my lungs out!!!! GOD!!!! WHY ARE U DOING THIS TO ME?!!??!?!??!?!!!!!!!!!!!!! WHAT IS IT THAT U WANT ME TO DO?????????????????
aahhhhhhhHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!