Where for art thou?

He crossed my thoughts a few times today.
One time too many.

Im missing his intense looks. His caring gestures.

How can someone fall for another sooo easily. And so fast. I know we will be nothing more than....

*smacks head*

We're not even friends~!

Sighz...

When am i not gonna spend xmas, new year, valentines,birthday etc. a lonely single gal???

Im sick of doing that for the past 21 years!!

When is HE coming into my life? Is he ever? I hate this feeling of hope i get everytime around this time of the year when everything seems possible!! But nOTHING EVER haPPENS!!!!!!!!!!

Oh God...Can You hear me!??!??! Can You see me badly wanting that special guy in my life? When are You going to let this happiness happen to me? I hate being 'alone' in this sense. I hate pretending that Jay is my bf..Pretending that im ok with being single.

Oh God..Please..Please let him come into my life. Please let it be soon. Oh God please.. Ameen..




--It's the heart that's afraid of breaking that never learns to dance.--

im not afraid anymore. come what may...