Feeling better..Just a little...

Yesterday after tt last entry, i sent Y a msg to say that i wasnt able to close anything for the weekend. I was practically tearing when i typed tt msg. Really felt lousy. Even eating a bar of chocolate didnt help make things feel a little better! hmpph~

Anyway, he replied tt he was glad i sent tt msg. Saying that he thinks i will go far. Just need the time to find my strength.

I cried when i saw his reply. Cos i felt sooo relieved at that.

I know i can work harder. Set more appt. Meet more ppl. And that is what i plan to do. Cos i believe i can do it. I believe im not cursed! I did it last month. And im gonna do it again and BEtTER this month! I CAN DO IT!!!

Btw cant believe i actually broke down in E's office today when he asked me if i thought i was not good enough as i did mention tt in my msg to him yesterday. Guess something in tt sentence did hit a raw nerve. Cos was already feeling bad as it is.

Well, shocked him a little i suppose.

I sooOO need to learn how to hold my tears back man! It's an advantage at times but not always. Too often and i'll become a cry baby! But im gonna stand up from this down-time.

Im gonna close a case by this week!! JUST ONE is something to start with. But IM GONNA MAKE SURE I CLOSE SOMETHING THIS WEEK!! No matter what and how. One live!

If u're reading this, pray that i will make it this week. Thanks. Oh God, i still pray to u to give me the strength to make me stronger. Both mentally and physically. Please God..Please give me the ability to achieve what im supposed to do. Ameen....